these nights

I hope I
never become
a drunkard
or become
a smoker
Even if
statistics
tell rough tales
and even
if the pain
can always
be intense,
these moments
come at a
cost, of time
and wellbeing.

I have a
family.
they care and
think about
my wellness.
That's more than
many people
can say of
their own lives.

I consider
my life a
privileged.
life. And I
often try
to remind
myself to
be thankful.

letting go
can be hard
but I am
trying to
dismiss my
selfishness